McConnell-Doidge: Week 7
This week started off extremely stressful and overwhelming knowing I would be filming for my edTPA. I'm convinced I probably made myself sick over it. Tuesday was the first day of filming and I was struggling to keep my voice. However, I was able to make it through the lesson, and I think it went very well. It was definitely a relief getting through it. One of my senior leaders knew I was extremely nervous, and said he never seen me like that. Luckily, I don't believe my nerves reflected on my video. It's not that I wasn't confident in what I was teaching, it's the process of the edTPA that is really getting to me. Knowing if i fail I'm not only letting myself down, but my family. I feel like as an adult studies student for most of us our family's livelihood is on the line. There is a lot riding on being successful and the pressure is overwhelming.
I think just the process in general as I have stated in previous blogs has been a lot on not just me, but my family. I just hope that I can make it all worth it. I just don't want any road blocks especially at the finish line when I have worked so hard. There is a quote that I always think of "don't let the fear of striking out keep you from the playing the game". It's a good reminder for not only me, but for my students. I found myself telling my students a lot this week "you got this, and stay positive". I think it is time I take my own advice, and I am actually coming to that realization just now as I sit here and type this, but I really need to trust that it will all be okay.
As far as teaching this week had a lot of great things. I just feel like this week i really felt like my students are really feeling comfortable with me as their teacher and I am building those relationships and they are realizing I am leaving after 2 weeks and just like me a lot of my students are sad. I feel really connected with where I am at, and it is definitely going to be hard to leave. I have had a phenomenal experience at my school. Standard 8 - Collaborative Relationships – The competent teacher builds and maintains collaborative relationships to foster cognitive, linguistic, physical, and social and emotional development. This teacher works as a team member with professional colleagues, students, parents or guardians, and community members.
I think just the process in general as I have stated in previous blogs has been a lot on not just me, but my family. I just hope that I can make it all worth it. I just don't want any road blocks especially at the finish line when I have worked so hard. There is a quote that I always think of "don't let the fear of striking out keep you from the playing the game". It's a good reminder for not only me, but for my students. I found myself telling my students a lot this week "you got this, and stay positive". I think it is time I take my own advice, and I am actually coming to that realization just now as I sit here and type this, but I really need to trust that it will all be okay.
As far as teaching this week had a lot of great things. I just feel like this week i really felt like my students are really feeling comfortable with me as their teacher and I am building those relationships and they are realizing I am leaving after 2 weeks and just like me a lot of my students are sad. I feel really connected with where I am at, and it is definitely going to be hard to leave. I have had a phenomenal experience at my school. Standard 8 - Collaborative Relationships – The competent teacher builds and maintains collaborative relationships to foster cognitive, linguistic, physical, and social and emotional development. This teacher works as a team member with professional colleagues, students, parents or guardians, and community members.
I certainly hope you see the benefits of all that you are putting into this and can convey this to your family as well. Keep focused on what is working, build on your strengths and you will continue to grow. Keep your head up and pray!
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